Simplicity

Right now my life is simple. Very Very Simple. I cannot remember a time when I ever felt so calm and curious about what is next. This is the first time I have no plans to move, no boy trouble, well, no boy, my job is going well, and somehow I have managed to find a handful of good friends. I finally feel like I am living my life instead of planning for the next phase.

See, I've always been very restless. Moving here, moving there, always dating and spending a year breaking up with the wrong men. Ditching any girlfriends for the flavor of the year. And worse, creating excitement (drama) when there was none...not my finest quality, I'll admit it. However, almost 2 years ago, I moved back to my hometown of Kansas City, and it amazes me that I'm still here. Typically a year/year and a half has always been my cutoff. I've only had one job for over a year and a half (now, this is mostly due to layoffs, but, still). I've never dated a guy for over a year..well, i've dated a guy happily for 8 months and then spent the next 8 trying to break-up. I've moved 8 times between 4 states since turning 18. And the fact that I'm still here in KC and am getting ready to paint my place is nothing short of miracle. I'm finally content with myself and have created a life I'm not wanting to leave, not yet anyway.

The next thing is going to come naturally because I'm LIVING my life, instead of planning...the next move, the next break-up, the next job. And it feels amazing.